In a way, it's good that body shaming is a hot topic now. I know what it's like to grow up feeling like a sub-human, feeling like trash, feeling like dirt because I wasn't thin and delicate.
When I'm in my darker moments, it's still what I cry myself to sleep about. If only, if only, if only.
The thing is about it all is that you have to be able to see yourself as already beautiful and worthy. Worthy of love and respect. Worthy of living.
I stopped eating, once, despite having a very active job. I lived on alcohol, a cup of yogurt, and little sleep. People noticed and congratulated me on it, but I wasn't healthy. I was dying inside and my head was full of my demons. I dreamed about taking a knife and carving the fat away.
When I changed my way of thinking, even though I gained the weight back, my health changed. Despite side effects from medications I take, I am as healthy as I could want. I follow my health closely, because I love myself. I am worthy and beautiful. I deserve my own respect and the respect of my peers. I know that people might look at me and make judgements, but that is not their place and I don't have to prove myself to them.
So, don't judge someone just because they are fat. Don't assume that because they have pride in themselves as they are right now, that they follow a movement that promotes self love where you are at, that they aren't taking care of their health.
